August 14, 2009 I guess to a certain extent I'm still very much like a little girl. Even though I've started earning my own money to be able to spend it wherever I want to, I'm still affected by the opinion and acceptance of the people around me, especially when it comes to pretty major decisions in life.
Sometimes I just stubbornly am all set to go ahead with something but I still feel the need to obtain the assurance or go ahead from the person I'm asking. And no matter how negative the person's reaction may be I keep trying to psycho the person until the person says either a "yes" or relents with "do what you want" (ie. my mum on my piercing - which I am still very much infatuated with)
And to you, I know I always get worried and constantly bug you to be careful a million times. Soon it'll be my turn to get my beloved toy. I promise I'll be careful, you can have my word on that k? If at any point in time I find myself too addicted, endangered or endangering others in any manner I'll sell it away. Just let me have the chance to feel what it's like to be free to roam about and explore places I've never seen before (assuming I get lost so easily this wouldn't be a problem) without worrying how late I can stay out.
Feeling really sad over my colleague who served her last day today. Sigh. No more crazy lady to entertain the whole office anymore. I want ice cream but its midnight plus I have nobody to call at such crazy hour. Double sigh. ):